Cant Be a Bitch..... Scared of Everything

Hey & Namaste!
I was driving on my way to work this morning singing made up words to radio songs and thinking of things to put on my gratitude/intention list when I realized, alot of things on my list of intention had come true. Everything on my grateful list I got MORE of. I was floored. (Like a lady at an ultra sound listening to 3 heart beats).

Grateful list is something that has changed my life forever. There is no coincidence that the rich get richer and the poor get poorer. (Its not ALL the government's fault) I know I'm not the only one who thinks, "WHAT must I do to go to the Oscars to get their 20,000 dollar gift bags to sell on eBay?" The more you realize what you have the less you focus on what you dont.

No thought is neutral....every thought creates

When that was told to me I understood that if I am thinking about how there are no more good men left in the world, how I could be more confident and have higher self-esteem if I could afford a trainer but I'm broke and fat. If I believed my car looks like the first luxury car made by Ford then I am a big ass Scare-dy Cat!

I was operating in fear...and had no clue....

I had to face some facts. I wasn't the bad ass Bitch that I thought I was. I was afraid of receiving thinking there was some small print I missed. I was afraid to enjoy my privileges because I might become snobby and no longer down to earth. I was afraid to enjoy life because if I laughed too much God would make me the next JOB and take it all away. I was afraid to love because I didn't want the voice in my head to be true....the one telling me I'm unlovable. (It waaaaaay more fun to just blame men for being assholes especially since they like to poke at them so much. lol)

When you are searching for someone to blame....you arent looking for truth.

Then I was told that gratitude was the key to receiving the life I wanted. I had to take responsibility for what my actions, thoughts and words had created in my life. The more I became grateful for having cuz at one time I didn't and appreciate things just as they were things begin to change. I would walk into work and everything that was awesome about my job was blaring as if I highlighted with some funky 80's neon color. I couldn't see the bad.

You bend spoons by realizing there isn't one. You smile at your obstacles when you realize there are none. Nothing exists...nothing is real but LOVE for that is what God is and God made everything. I made a gratitude list because I realize that I wanted more of the good in my life. It opened my heart to receive and gave me courage to have faith in everything again.

I just moved into one of the best places Ive ever lived in, I have a significant other who is seriously more my best friend than anything and I have more income even though I didn't change jobs or gain more responsibility. All from just being grateful. Its a good life.

There's more to this lovely thing of gratitude but I gotta go. Not trying to burn dinner and I gotta get to cardio kickboxing. SWIMSUIT SEASON! But please leave comments! Love and Freedom

THERE IS NO SPOON
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