Hey and Namaste! My name is Seven and I am a 5 foot 2 inch American woman whose thighs rub together, who sticks crystals down her bra, couldn't function without meditation and could drink a grown man under the table especially if the liquor of choice was rum!
Oh.......
And I just figured out.....I'm no longer a Christian.
Not too much of a shocker to you, if you just met me.......but to others.....little chicken is outside screaming at them "THE SKY IS FALLING! THE SKY IS FALLING!!!!!" And in the quiet abyss of their minds (I use sarcasm often you will soon see) a crack has happened as loud as the gasp of America when Kanye West stole that award moment from Taylor Swift. Why? They just don't understand how such a God fearing woman (<---- dumbest description of a person ever) could turn her back on JESUS!
I happen to love Jesus very much. Out of all the religious models and master teachers there are, Jesus is the BEST in my opinion. He was a forward thinker. He was loving and kind. Above all, (and this is my favorite part) He had huge balls! I mean, the things He would say to the leaders of the Church back then took guts! His ideas were radical and wild and accepting of everyone which was a huge deal in a culture where things were very black & white and FIRE AND BRIMSTOOOOOOONE! So do not mistake my leaving the Christan faith with my lack of love and respect for Jesus. I love Jesus. I am just not so sure of the religion that formed after He left this Earth. There is a huge difference!
That's what this blog is about.....
There are many people like me who were faithful members of their church. Did every car wash and bake sale. Was at every rehearsal. Went to Bible Study, Taught Sunday School and did the announcements while directing the choir on Sunday. All of that work, and they still felt that there was something more. Still felt far away from God. Still felt like....they were not enough.
The Matrix Trilogy is one of my favorite movies. I relate to Neo now more than ever. After losing everything I knew to be true, I was given a gift.....a blank piece of paper to start completely over. I mean, grandma butter biscuits from scratch OVER. I knew there was something else out there. I knew that God was bigger than the limits that religion was placing on Him/Her/Them/It. Above all, I knew God was way more accepting than the religion was allowing God to be.
I found myself LOVING Lady GaGa and mad she kept coming up in prayer circles. I found myself drinking a glass of wine with my sirloin and feeling guilty that I DIDN'T feel guilty about it. I found masturbation to be the KEY TO LIFE. I found myself acquiring more gay friends and realizing that nobody would CHOOSE to go through that type of hell. I found myself wanting to be SAVED from the requirement of judgement. And so God saved me, by giving me help to do it myself. (Names like Doreen Virtue, Sonia Choquette and Louis Hay house will mean a lot to you later for they are huge experts in this sort of thing)
I started this blog because I know I am not the only one who has found themselves on this path. I want to let you know that I understand how rough it can be. I want to let you know that you are sooooooooooo not alone.
Most of all, I want to let you know its okay.
I am not an expert, nor do I have any certain answers but I do have my experience and I sure do hope my journey helps yours. I will share what I know and you allow your spirit to sift through and tell you which parts of this blog is for you. Lets grow...together. Love and Freedom to you all!
THERE IS NO SPOON
Seven
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