Sooooo hot yoga kicked my ass. I mean its been a long time where a workout has made me wanna throw up, pass out ANNNNND beg for my life not to end. And Im no stranger to the gym. One of the very few people who actually like the gym but that workout beat me like a slave that had been captured by not Russia but U.S.S.R. But let me tell you, I loved it. Why? Come closer, pour yourself a shot and let me fill you in.
The first thing I felt when I walked into the room was a great peace. Like lavender was personified. I sat in the room like an exhibitionist and watched the people and absorbed them. I was in ahhhh of these folks. It was evident their body and spirit were one.
It reminded me of what a beautiful soul named Egami Reh told me and I never forgot it. She said, you are the God of your own body. She told me that your body is so loyal to you that if you asked it to drink a gallon of bleach...it would. You are God, Ruler, Boss and Emperor. Your cells, organs, bones, ect worship and praise you. They exists to serve you so I ask what kind of God are you? What kind of boss are you? Would you prefer your boss to be yelling at you everyday to get your work done or help you and praise you to get your work done? Your cells feel stress. 80 percent of diseases are related to stress. SO trust me, your cells feel negativity like you do when your boss walks in on Monday with evidence of "FUCK EVERYONE" all over them. Its hard to work in that atmosphere. So here I am in this room as the odd man out. Not just cuz I was the only black, overweight person in the room but because my aura was a snitch and it was screaming to everyone I hadnt been kind to my body.
Now we are well into the workout and I am looking like an idiot. I didnt know what the hell I was doing. I remember looking in the mirror and cursing myself out. Why you ask? There was a beginners class but I chose this class because I wanted more for my money and since the beginners class was only an hour and the advanced was 90 mins...I chose this class. Greed sucks ass. Well at this moment, kicks ass....not in the awesome white boy way either.
At this time Im beginning to notice some things. I cant align my body, I cant balance and I am not flexible AT ALL. On top of the fact that it feels like there is a bunch of meat from the night before stuck in my throat planning an escape from my body like its in a poorly secured prison.....I am hurting. My body is hurting and shaking and I cant breathe. So I lay in childs pose after an hour of all this and reflect.
Physical cant come to be without it being in the spiritual first. Am I not balanced? Am I not align? Am I not flexible? Yes. Yes. And damnit More YES!
The next day I go and hang out with some friends to exchange ideas about spirituality. I believe there is no one religion that has it all right soooooooo its important, no matter what religion you affiliate with, to speak with people from other religions to help round out your spirit. Your spirit isnt Christian or Jewish....it is spirit which includes all.
In the midst of our chatting I asked one of my friends who is a Lesbian how she deals with people feeling like her lifestyle is wrong because Christians I use to know feel the same way about my lifestyle now. (a lifestyle that excludes Pastors, Church, a definition of "sin" and ect...) I told her I havent figured how to deal with people still trying to "save me". (Which is about as annoying as someone telling you the ending to a movie you've waited 5 months to see....yes THAT annoying) She told me she accepts those who dont accept her lifestyle for where they are and that I was judgemental for standing against their beliefs. OH NO SHE DIDNT SAY I WAS JUDGEMENTAL! But it made sense. I didnt realize I wasnt being flexible. How can I expect a person to accept everyone and I only accept people who are open minded in the way I think they should be? I cant. The epiphany was sooooo beautiful and I am working on it becoming habitually subconscious. Bottom line, yoga showed me myself and the universe was already working on showing me how to fix the darkness that was hiding in me.
I am working on my balance and alignment now but Im still not certain the areas I need to reevaluate but I am waiting on the spirit world to reveal them to me. I Love this life I live. I love loving this life. I hope you are doing the same with yours. Thank you for reading. Love and Freedom.
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